Since 2006 my life has changed a lot in many ways. I was not the same person as I was at that time; my circumstance were not the same as before nor was my spiritual state. I had lived for 2 years in a state of wilderness seeking any means available to evolve myself however due to many of my own vices I had failed a number of times. At times when the soul feels in a lowly state the remembrance of the Imam [a] and his Sister [s] served as a means of hope. Hope that maybe someday I would be there again, I held on to that hope for 2 years along with the tradition of the Ahlul Bayt [a] - 'Our graves are in the hearts of our believers', such a statement provided the strength to be patient and try to hold on to those memories to remain steadfast. At times though the determination weakened due to the state of this society and the self gave into the lower desires of the self, leaving a feeling of regret and longing of return to the right path.
0n 17th July 2008, the day arrived where I would be leaving the Western World behind away from the materialistic aspects and attachments and going through a rigorous thinking and reflecting period in the land of Toos being a guest of the Imam [a]. An honor which was very undeserving for me as I am nothing but a lowly servant who has sins the size of mountains and nothing to offer but simple salutations. He is Ar-Raoouf, the merciful and his attribute of mercy is what gives millions of people hope, hope for fulfillment of their wishes, hope for finding solutions to their problems, hope that he will intercede and aid us in this world and in the hereafter, hope that he will bless us regardless of our sins, hope that he will enlighten us to correct ourselves.
With these thoughts in my mind, with the vision of his Beautiful Shrine in my eyes and hope in my heart I left on this journey of self realization on the 20th July 2008 accompanied with friends and some new faces that would be part long lasting memories.
May Allah elevate the status of Imam Al-Ridha [a] and his Sister Masooma [s].
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wow, reading your reflections consoled my spirit in its solitude. And I continue to yearn for the day I reunite with my Imam (as) and his Sister (as) with the hope that the day will soon come.
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